so bad - 2nd edition...

i start to rber tat i missed ur 21st birthday on 26th sept. is adi 10 days late! i feel vr guilty abt tat. how could i forget abt it! i dun dare to wish u happy belated birthday on d spot...my heart really feel uncomfortable tat time...

n now, 2day is 2nd october, i read ur blog...my heart is not oni feel uncomfortable rite now...it is pain now...it was ur 21st birthday, which it bring meaning tat u r adult now...forgiv me tat i forgot ur birthday...i shouldn't b like tat,shouldn't forgot it a!...as wat i write in the below blog, i really get out from my normal life, im not walk in the rite road now. i jus stand at a place which i cant get out from it. But i noe, as ur best fren (hope u still agree with me tat v r best fren), i not oni cant b ur side to celebrate ur birthday,  how could i dare to forget abt it, im "unforgivable"...really

mayb u will say nvm, mayb u will say im forgivable, mayb u will feel sad, o mayb u actually feel mad, i still feel guilty...not oni guilty, but it is a feeling tat make myself really moody...i would like to say soli...but the soli cant make myself free from the feeling...really cant...

i duno when can i get out from the depression n get back to my normal life...mayb i need a trip which can bring me back to my normal life, a trip tat like d teluk batik's trip tat u all help me tat time. n mayb a trip like tat oso cant help me anything...i duno. but i'll try to rber myself tat i adi make a promise to myself tat i'll try my best to rber ur 22nd birthday n wish u happy birthday tat time. so, plz forgiv me tat i dun1 wish u happy belated belated belated birthday here....................

Comments

[laynexin]

i am numb when i first read this blog. never know im actually the person inside the story. if not bcos of a WORD u mentioned, ill never know. Dun blamed urself. Im glad enough n im touched that u actually wrote out the blog. I can feel how guitly u r. How bad u feel. But its all been gone. Its good enought that u appreciate and take the initiative to wish me...although is "belated".How many ppl will actually do this? Im touched. Really touched...Stop blaming urself, and dont feel bad to talk to me...like we used to. Hope to see u guys again soon...I'll be back, when time allow...